I'm not strong.

It's been month and month I've been lying to myself that I'm not in love with him. But sometimes,I DON'T!
Well, its soooo complicated to tell you. I love him evento I knew that I never own him. Its killing me,you know? To be frank, I like spendin' times with him. He's soooo...ergh and VERY PERVERT! hahaha shh shhh that's suspose to be OUR dirty secret. hehe. Now I can't sleep well cause of this. *feverish. I can't deny you. Not even once.